I was sitting in class today, and I was thinking about what next year would be like. Well next year is my senior year. Thats the year I have to be ready to get all of my colleges picked out and actually think about where I want to live.

I draw well, but it isnt perfect. So Im not sure about becoming a manga artist. Im not that bad at math so maybe videogames? But where I live, theres just no chance of me actually being able to invest in my future career.

I know I should leave and "follow my dreams" but i cant leave my mom at home by herself with my 30 year old bummy brother WHO STILL DOESNT HAVE A JOB! What if mommy cant pay for the bills on her own? OMG, Is she going to live with me when I grow up?! Crap! What college am I going to?!

Wait, Im sure this joural hada point. ... ... ... ..I forgot! I hope this isnt actually how my brain works! O.O